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May 4th, 2012

i, anonymous: one of my favorites

“So, I laid down for a nap the other day. I closed my eyes, and for the first time that I can remember in the 6 months since you died, I felt you lying there with me. I don’t know if it had to do with my sleep deprivation, or with the obituary I had helped to write the day before, or with the pot I had smoked to finally fall asleep during the night, but I felt you there, and was (am) grateful. But… my mind was whipping into a sandstorm of emotion. With my eyes closed, sensations came in clear and cutting waves, with a sickening roar of self-realization in the background, blurry but closing in. And though I was so grateful to feel you there with me, some part of my mind – of my self? – wanted to escape from the intense reality of it. To get back into a safe dome of ‘normalcy,’ I thought about watching porn to hide from it. I told myself ‘no,’ that this presence was to be savored. But, I snuck away all the same, to a haze of other sensation, safe and predictable, shallow and radiating, to masturbating before my alarm went off. And even there in my fantasies, I couldn’t let myself be with you. I really miss you.”

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April 17th, 2012

amazing

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January 18th, 2012

chronicle of a death foretold

this says it better than i ever could.

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December 16th, 2011

spider friday

two-horned spider (caerostris sexcuspidata), south africa

as-yet unnamed spider, west africa

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December 9th, 2011

vesta rocks

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December 5th, 2011

black-headed python

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December 1st, 2011

giant weta

behold, the newest heaviest insect in the world:

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October 5th, 2011

sphaerotheriida (giant pill millipede)

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September 24th, 2011

what are you thinking about?

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September 15th, 2011

glow-worms

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