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March 3rd, 2015

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May 30th, 2014

“what is essential is to see that one is confused and not try to escape from it, not try to find explanations for it; be passively, choicelessly, aware. And then you will see that quite a different action springs from that passive awareness, because if you make an effort to clarify the state of confusion, what you create will still be confused. But, if you are aware of yourself, choicelessly, passively aware, then that confusion unfolds and fades away.”

- J.Krishnamurti

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May 4th, 2012

i, anonymous: one of my favorites

“So, I laid down for a nap the other day. I closed my eyes, and for the first time that I can remember in the 6 months since you died, I felt you lying there with me. I don’t know if it had to do with my sleep deprivation, or with the obituary I had helped to write the day before, or with the pot I had smoked to finally fall asleep during the night, but I felt you there, and was (am) grateful. But… my mind was whipping into a sandstorm of emotion. With my eyes closed, sensations came in clear and cutting waves, with a sickening roar of self-realization in the background, blurry but closing in. And though I was so grateful to feel you there with me, some part of my mind – of my self? – wanted to escape from the intense reality of it. To get back into a safe dome of ‘normalcy,’ I thought about watching porn to hide from it. I told myself ‘no,’ that this presence was to be savored. But, I snuck away all the same, to a haze of other sensation, safe and predictable, shallow and radiating, to masturbating before my alarm went off. And even there in my fantasies, I couldn’t let myself be with you. I really miss you.”


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April 24th, 2012

“your mind will answer most questions if you learn to relax and wait for the answer.” — william s. burroughs

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March 12th, 2012

email from cousin stu

“have you done the drive to portland lately?  i’m thinking about it during the summer, but not sure it will be more stress than its worth.  i know ur dad does it w/ his eyes closed but he is gangsta.”
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March 1st, 2012

jose canseco’s most depressing tweets


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January 15th, 2012


“Through photography, I have learned about love. I hadn’t learned about love at home or in school. Photography formed and shaped me. I couldn’t have learned about love without photography, and I’m still learning.”

- gay block

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January 11th, 2012


“The most terrifying thing is to accept oneself completely.”

― carl jung

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October 16th, 2011

email from dad, day 30 of retirement roadtrip

“…we find a quite Jazz bar not so loud I went there to have Hurricanes drink, it reminded me 42 year ago me and my best friend Somchai (Steve) were here we both have couple of the Hurricanes we got so drunk we decided to leave town the same night . And I drove through the beginning of the Hurricanes Camilia hit Louisiana and Florida coast in 1969, that night the rain and wind were so strong I could not see where I going and we were so drunk I decided to park car on the side of the road, and go to sleep. It was good thing we did next morning when I woke up there were tree branches all over the car and as we drove on we saw houses with no roof and so much damage all over the place, it was lucky that we stop. We don’t have no idea that the hurricanes is coming . Any way back to the Hurricanes drink it have one shot of Bacardi 151, one shot of white Rum,one shot of dark Rum,and fruit juice. Guess how many drink I have , I have two of the Hurricanes first I feel good then it hit me I got so drunk I have to drink a lot of water and walk around before we drove back to motel. The next day I have a giant hang over, and this it a reminder to you young people don’t drive when you drunk walk it off first then drive O K.”

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September 30th, 2011

email from mom, day 14 of retirement roadtrip

“…It was still pouring rain, we were hungry, so we went in the Hard Rock Cafe, had a big fat hamburger and fries, they played 60′s,70′s rock music, we had good lunch and rocking same time, Eagle’s ” Hotel California” reminded us good, romantic memories.
I remembered just before school started, Pat took me to Coos Bay for a weekend, where he and his friend, “Thavee ” used to work and rented small trailer house during the summer vacation. On the way down we were listening ” Eagle’s, Chicago, Bread, Andy William , Carpenter’s, Simon and Garfunkel, etc….
Thavee had a Dunbuggi jeep, so Pat took me for a ride on sand, and got stuck in the mud, splashing the mud all over on my white pants and my blue tee shirts, and his,too. We had so much laughs those days. Memory~~~~~~la la la la la~~~~~~~.
It was so fun and romantic time, that was Sept, 1973, we were only dated each other for 6 months. I didn’t let him come close to me.
That summer he planted a beautiful rose names,” tropicana”, in front of Aunt, Ock Ha’s house, so I  can look out the window and enjoyed rose from home where I stayed until we got married.  Before that summer, in the spring we went up to rose garden Washington Park, I told him that ” Tropicana”, was my favorite.
Aunt, Ock Ha had that rose in front of her house for a long time , than she brought that rose when she moved to Beaverton house ( current resident ) in 1994, she still has that rose , growing beautifully in front of her house now. A few years ago, she gave me a branch to grow in our backyard. We have more beautiful roses , Pat planted for me. I love him dearly who tried his best make me happy, and make this most memorable road trip possible in my life time.
At 3:00pm we got in to Toronto ,Canada. , we will stay here for 2 nights.
Tomorrow we plan to tour the town and rest.
Have good night everyone.


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